What am I here for?

What does a missionary do?  If you can answer this question fully than you are way ahead of me.  It is scary for me to think that.  I mean here we are in Haiti, missionaries, and I can't tell you what I am here to do.  Now don't get me wrong, I now what my role here at Grace Village is, but besides that what does God want me to do.

We have a bible study every Sunday over on Global Outreach's property (in Titanyen).  There are about 10 different groups of American missionaries that get together.  It is a wonderful time of worship and study.  This is were we go to get filled by like minded people and learn more about our Faith.  I am amazed by the hearts and minds of these people.  We have people that are new to the field (like us) and some that have been doing it for 30 years or more.  Each one of us does different things here, orphanages, schools, drilling wells, feeding programs, etc.  

We had a lesson recently where we talked about evangelism.  Spreading the good news of God.  There was a discussion about how many people missionaries lead to Christ.  I am going to be honest, the first thought that entered my head was as follows: "You mean I quit my job, moved my family to a third world country, gave up most of I had to be here and I also have to lead them to Christ? Isn't my sacrifice enough to show what it means to be a Christian?"  I know this is a very selfish thought but it only lasted for a minute and what it really was, was me feeling convicted.  

Now, in the US this was an easy thing to play off.  I am in Management at my work and evangelizing could be taken the wrong way by an employee.  Most of my friends where Christians and those that weren't had heard things from me from time to time ( I would use the few and far between evangelism tactic, meaning I wasn't).  So the interesting thing here is that God continued to spin this in my head.  First, I realized how lame my excuses from before where and then I realized God called us here, not just to help, lead, and demonstrate a Christian life but to bring more people to his kingdom. 

Matthew 28-19 

Therefore, go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, Son, and the Holy Spirit.

Ok, so I am pretty sure there is no way he could make that request any clearer.  I hear you Lord, I hear you.  Now my prayer is that he would strengthen me and teach me how to make disciples.  

I have recently begun a bible study for some of the young men in Titanyen and I am hoping that God can use this to help me become the Evangelist he wants.  Please continue to pray for us.  Please pray that God takes away my fear and begins to use me in ways he has wanted to all along.